Underneathe the lodge 

Hood 

interesting enough Ihelped this lady get unstuck.. Thanks to the 4X4 that I rented instead of the caddy that I was going to get. They also had an H3.. I will be renting that when I go back in a few months to summit Mt. Hood.  

Wow.. Those rods coming out of the ground are for the snow so you stay on the road from the drifts and what not.. 

Basecamp for hood 

on Hood 

Me at the trailhead for MT. Hoof 

Nice view 

Side of the mountain with the rental 

Cloud Shadows 

getting close to the TImberline 

waterfall on the mountain 

Waterfall under the road 

mmmm 

View 

Gas prices a little highg there but everyone has OLD ass cars.. 

GPS Navigation system 

GPS Navigation System saved me a couple of times... 

I look a little tired 

Wasting Film I look a little tired huh? 

Something new everyday..

So today begins a new day.
I went today to the doctors offcie to get my test pump for insulin therapy.
It is kind of neat. I like it..
I thought it would be a hassle and whatnot but it blends right in with my cell phones on my hip and all.

6 months ago I started on insulin therapy and now I am looking into getting a pump. Two weeks from now I will make my descion based on testing two different pumps and a week or so after that I will be on an insulin pump to control my diabetes.

Something I never thought happening in my life did. I adapted and changed but most of all I accepted it. I am taking control of my life and will control it not letting it control me. As long as I do that I will be ok and live a normal life. I do not have to worry about not eating this and not eating that. Everything about my own health I control. With diabetes that is.

I started packing last night for my trip. I am definately excited about going. I cannot wait to see Samantha and watch her graduate. I am going to try and see Shawn while I am up there and touch base with him on his life.

Sometimes life is so amazing. We all look at different situations and think about them in different ways.
It is getting hotter and hotter here in ATL.
I am liking it.
Pretty soon it will be upon us.. Summer and the true humid heat. The standing still sweating profusely heat.

Ohh yay for summer..

Naps...

I came home from my weekend job yesterday and felt a little tired..
I layed down to sleep and woke up around 10 o'clock. I had just taken a good long nap.. I came into work last night and finish things up from the previous week. Nothing really eventful happened.
I went home and the roomate was already in bed so I sat up folding clothes and preparing for this weeks trip..
Then I layed down on the couch.. AKA bed.. and tried to go to sleep.....
I finally went to bed around 2:30 in the morning..
I did not sleep for long because I kept having these dreams that would wake me up.. Someone had said something to me and it literally stuck in my head and I could not get it out..
Somehoe I incorporated that into my dreams and everytime I woke up I kept thinking about it. I kept trying to think what it meant.. I kept thinking about the words over and over.. I could not understand it at all..
Sometimes in life I try to understand everything..
I try to blame myself if something never goes just like I would hope it to go..
These dreams where scary as hell..
One constant in them was BB..
I do not know why..

This weekend was pretty neat.. I went and saw a laser show at Stone Mountain..
I could notbelieve I had never heard about doing this before..
It was cheap..
A group of us packed a pinic basket dinner and went and sat in this big open area facing the stone carving. After dark around 9:30 the laser light show began.. I have to say for 8 bucks for the car load of people it was worth it..
People where playing frisbee and soccer and throwing the football.. Smashing pennies on the railroad track that passed in front of us..
Fireworks from the show where awesome..
I could not have asked for a better time..
I just wish I knew about it sooner..

2 days left... I will be driving to Nashville Wed night and going to my friends house so they can take me to the airport bright and early in the morning. Then I will fly for eight hours and get into PDX around dinner time..
Get my rental car and head to the hotel..

I am trying to look up another friend that moved to Portland..
We grew up together right down the street from one another.
He was one year senior to me..
He used to take me to school and we would hang out on the weekends getting into all kinds of things..
Bottle Rocket Wars you name it we did it..

Anyways.. work is starting to call at me so I gotta run..

Just remembering..

Maybe someday you will read this....
I was siiting in my office like always and for some reason I thought of things in the past..
I thought of the times we had together the times we shared.. The good times and the bad..
Being pretty much a optimistic person I looked at how things happen that changed my life.
We where both good people that cared alot about each other. We both went outside of our box.. took a step and changed our lives together. I am very much not bitter about things that happened.. I am very appreciative and thankful for us doing and experiencing the things we did together.. I would most likely still be in the same place I was in my life.. Just going through the motions of doing the daily business..
I would still be living in a place working for someplace I really had no future in. I would have never taken the chances like I have recently.. I would not be where I am at today without you..
You where a pivital point in my life and it was something that I needed. Something that I wanted.. That is why I was so reluctant to let you go..
I loved you and still love you for all of this.
You have meant so much to for so long..
Now at this point to where we are both moving on with our lives without each other I just hope that you remember the good times and the bad. Remember what we shared together and not think of what we could have lost in each other.
Time is the ultimate healing process and that is what it takes..
Yeah everyday when I come home I miss coming home to the little dog jumping at my feet.. The times we went to the park.. The little things.. your foot shaking the bed constantly.. The quirks that everyone has...
You are a very special person and I hope you know that. You are not only special to me but in everyones life you touch. You think with your heart before your head, but that is never a bad thing.
I will always be there for you in your time of need. That is something that I can still extend to you.
One day when we are able to sit and eat dinner and talk about our lives and our past we will both look back and laugh.
But it is that one day that I look forward to. Because loosing you as a friend and a person that came into my life is not something I like to admit.
I am not a person that admits failure but I have failed you in your life. For that I am sorry..
I hope that you reach for your dremas and never accept no for an answer. You can do anything you set your mind to..
I miss everything about you..
But time will slowly pull you away..
I am going next weekend to see Samantha graduate from college. Something me and her talked about years ago. She never thought she would make it as well but I kept telling her that things will go in her favor and she will graduate.. She did..
Nonetheless we have both moved on in our lives. After time we both drifted back into contact. She is someone that I shared alot of memories with.. But you have taken precedent in my life. I have never lived with someone and came home to anyone before in my life.
I just want you to know I appreciate your time you gave me in your life. I am sorry for failure in our relationship but I hope that in your future you find happiness.. That is all you deserve. Whatever you do that makes you happy. You made me happy for almost a year and some months..
The hard time and the good ones all rolled into one. If there was nothing but good times then things would not be as colorful as they are....
You will go a long way in your life and I hope to see you some day reach your dremas and goals.. You deserve that. I hope that the point where I came into your life I helped you out.Because you helped me. I tried to do as much for you as you did for me. Love sucks and it hurts.. but without the pain you would not know what it is to feel good. You would not appreciate the good times and would just take them for granted.
Keep your head high.. As I keep telling myself that.. We will both forge our own lives and strike out into this world in search of the thing everyone wants..
To be happy..
I love you and miss you.. My best wishes and hopes for you in your journey through life.. One day when we reconnect and catch up on things I hope that you have a great many stories to tell and laugh about, for I am sure I will as well.. Good luck BB.......

Yeay for technology..

I am getting a test insulin pump in a few days. I will be testing out two different pumps that I have selected to see which one will fit me best based on the features and gadgets that come along with them. The two I have selected are the one that I think look the nicest and have some of the features that is going to best suite me. I am very excited about that because I will not have to give myself anymore injections. I can live an almost normal life.
When it rains it pours..
When you ask for something and you are patient you will get it.. I believe in that now.
It is just hard to balance and choose sometimes..
Forrest Gump might not have been a smart man but he did have some good writers putting those sayings in his mouth..
I am going shopping for a digital camera today.. I want to find one that is small and I have been watching them on Ebay. I am going to compare the ones I see online to store ones.. I think Ebay will be my best bet though. Who knows we shall see..

I remember when I got here last year and all it did was rain for like 19 days straight.. I feel like it is happening again.. Not that the rain bothers me I jsut wish it would give some sunshine in between.. Rain, sunny, Rain... then a little sunshine..
I have alot of things to get done before I leave for vacation.. The dog went back to Nashville so that Trish would not have to take care of him.
Looks like I will be flying out of Nashville anyways.. We sahll see..

Three day vacation

The past weekend was fantastic.
It was a milestone weekend. Saturday I went and saw two of my friends graduate. Then the new rromate and I both had everyone we knew over to the place. Everything is redone and things look good. I am going furniture shopping this weekend to find either a sofa sectional or some recliners. Then Sunday we got ready and went out for the hike like we planned. It was awesome. I put the pictures after this post. It was nice to go out and not have anything just to be out there. The sound of the waterfall was so calming. No phone, no electricity we had nothing. I could not have asked for anything else. The weather did not matter at all.. We ate good and talked alot about things past present and future. I do not think I could have found a better roomate then I did. She is awesome. Her friends are cool as well. We get along great and share alot of the same interest so it is easy to go and hang ot with her and her boyfriend or group of friends.
Now today back into the daily grind of working kind of sucks but I am looking forward to my next vacation next thurs through sun. I will be out..
I have a flight that will be going across the country... Hotel rental car... oh man..
Looking forward to that..