SABER 

slwoly moving along. 

Look at those level bricks 

Watering the mess 

This is me roping off the retaining wall that I starte to build.  

Trying to show how level it is. 

This is the front yar before the flower bed and the landscaping. 

Ok this is the begining of the modification to my house and yard. I brougt in 4 tons of sand to level out the sod and make things look a lot better than it did. You can tell the uneveness of the land by the grass poking though. I wil post an after picture later. 

Ahhhh the TJ MAX special 

I do not know what these are really.. They just go with the collection 

Nice 

These past pictures where the compliments of the current alcoholic glass collection that I bought for myself last Christmas... I am still building my collection. 

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Divrorced?
Might as well be!! I have not really got anyhting accomplished this weekend except sitting on my but.. I am embarassed.. Well I miht as well getup now and do something.. I had a long week this week. I went to SCS and came back in the same day. Did not get anysleep from Thursday to Friday... Except what little I got in my car on the way back to here.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

You know.. I just noticed that my status is "a Swinger"!!!!!
OMG.. I never even knew that. I wonder what people have thought when they read my profile or blog. I mean I never look at my own profile on here just my opening page.. Ohh well! I hope it scared a lot of people away!!
Well anyone who knows me will attest.. I am the farthest thing from a swinger. But heck.. I need to change that! I mean the proile that is..
I am traveling this weekend it is confirmed. Will not speak publically of it here but I will be leaving Thursday night. I think but will be back the next day or Saturday. I have not figured it out just yet. I am flying b the seat of my pants on this one.



This is from myspace archive.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

There was no hatred!! Current mood: determined
I was not spilling hatred or anything.. I can just rememeber things that pepole have said to me that made me want to do the things I have. I used to be really down on myself..
During the time that BB and I where going through it and I was having major health issues.. I mean I was really downing myself not thinking I was good enough for a lot of things.. Now, people I do not even know are like woah... "It is nice to see what you have done for yourself and what you have planned for." I mean I know that all these "things" cannot bring me happiness. I know that I am not "succesful" with all these things.. I can just afford to have these toys and still carry on with my life.
I am NOT being morbid.. But, the truth is I am not going to be around forever and I cannot take these things with me.. I just want to have fun with them while I can.. and I can afford it.. I was not trying to be cocky with my last post whatsoever... BUT and a BIG BUT I have tried so hard in life to do nothing but get ahead from paycheck to pay check.. and now that I am there I feel good like I accomplised something... So I am going to TOOT my horn for a minute cause I know with the cycle of lief it will not last forever... I can have everything going so right and still be depressed..
Anyways.. I gots to go to bed..

Myspace archive

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Ever doubt me? Current mood: accomplished
For anyone who told me I can't...
F you...
For anyone who doubted me..
F you to.
For anyone that has ever hurt me..
You just made me stronger..
For all the troubles I have endured..
I am being rewarded..

I worked around the house this weekend.. I blew money like it was going ou of style.. I cooked enough food to last me a week..
I have really made it to a point in my life where money really is the farthest thing from my mind.. It is nothing to even really think about. All I do now is decided where I want it to go instead, of how to get more of it..
I have gone through my house and started offering items that I am not using anymore to people who need it more than me.
You know the thing that gets me the most. I have done this all by myself. Granted I have had help here and there but for the most part I have accomplished this by my own. I am proud of what I have done but I wonder how much more succes one can achieve.
I have had the first of a major complication though in my life last week. Cost me a trip to the doctors over it... yuck.
Anyways.. I just though I would tell you people out there that ever heard me talking and thought I was full of shit to piss off..
I will make a life for myself.. With or without anyones help and with or without someone.


Monday, July 17, 2006

Lifes milestones Current mood: awake
So everything a guy wants and yet I still thirst for more.
house. Dog. Cat. Car.. a nice car at that. I love driving it everywhere in Hot Lanta. Great job. Good girl.. but yet there is still an emptiness in my life. Something I crave and want. Something that I wish I could have everyday. It will all come in due time. I do not want to have to give up my sportscar life just yet but it is for sure something that I want.
Family.
I have an empty house to fill. I best get shagalaggin.


Friday, June 23, 2006

New things in life...
I sat last night at work and thought to myself how much my life has changed since I took that step and moved to Atlanta. Now... I cannot even believe who I have become. I owe it all to someone who I took a chance on and I guess they took a chance on me. I owe it to someone who changed their life and lost friends that they held close to them. We both had sacrifices to get where we are today. Hell, I guess we all must sacrifice to ge something we want. I have filled my life lately with rewards. All my hard work is paying off and I can see things coming together for my life. I am happy about the things that I have done with my life and can only wait to see what is going to come about and where I choose to go from here. I know I have not posted anything A in my blog for a LONG time or B in here for a while. There is a perfectly good reason why I am holding my life back from anyone who wants to read it. But, now that is in my past I can freely ad openly go back about my life and documenting it for people to poke there noses through. I have tons of intersting information to tell and devulge and Millions of pictures to post in my blog.

Life has is for sure gotten a ton better and things are good.. But as always I want things to be better than they are.. Soo anyways.. onward I go to striving for perfection...
And a baby's daddy...
(Inside Joke) No children for me yet...

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Time does get you..
I found out today that my grandfather is having mini strokes. He has suffered a few so far and they are so minute that he almost does not know that he has had them. This coming from a man who has been to the doctor about 15 times his whole life. He has always been healthy as a horse. The future is very unclear due to the fact that if he goes then there will be no one there to take care of my grandmother. Which means nursing home. I will not let that happen no matter what. I will literally sell everything I own and start all over if I have to. I have been shaken up about this but I am keeping my mouth shut about it. Only the myspace community of my firends who read my blog will know.
I cannot see my grandmother in a home, nor my grandfather. I will not let that happen and I do not think the rest of the family will either. Well, it is not the first time that we get bad news. But, the family, and I tend to just roll with it and live everyday we can with them. I knew there was a time and place for them to leave my life, but I am not ready for this just yet.


Monday, June 26, 2006

If I was not busy enough
I have a big choice to make.
These next few days are going to be pretty let's say... hard to choose. I have a lot of things lined up since I was not in town last week.
I have a job interview at oddly enough 4 tomorrow or so. That was a reschedule from Monday.
I am so busy still unpacking I have yet to even bring in my clothes from my trip to Memphis.
I just need to keep my bags packed because I am probaly going to be off again to Orangeburg, SC and Raleigh, NC.
Long weeks with little time to myself to enjoy my house and settle things in. I have to take a few more pictures.
Ohh well.. No sleep today.


Tuesday, March 21, 2006

So much drama.. Some people have some real balls. Others are cowards. Me included. To much to really go into right now. I will be going away for a week for work in Memphis. I will be staying pretty close to Tunica and I plan on going down to play at least one night I am there. Most likely though I will jus stay in my hotel room and work/sleep.
I have lots to still unpack around the house and I have a party to still clean up. Gotta go. Glad I am going to be gone for a week.
I think though I am not going back to my second job. I am to tired all the time and there is to much drama going on there right now and I am in the middle and it surrounds me.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

What a weird three days..

So the past week has been a little shall we say... packed.
It started Monday and has not stopped since then. I have not had much sleep at all and on top of that I have had a wonderful good time. I have helped people in my past present but do not see anything in the future.
Sounds weird but it would make sense if you where inside my head.

I got a call Tuesday night/Wednesday morning while sitting here at my desk. BB called and asked if I could take her to the Emergency room because she is having complications with things. Of course I dropped what I was doing and left to go and take her. I sat with her all morning long until they discharged her and took her back home. The surgery was yesterday at 10Am. Things went well and she is already back up and running on her own. Tough little gal she is.
So after I left the hospital I went home and got some much needed sleep.. For all of 2 hours. Wednesday everyone and there brother was coming over to first tailgate for the ATL THRASHERS game.
Mattie was coming in from Indy, and about 8 people from work was coming over to have a wonderful night full of beer drinking and pizza eating. Although I am NOT a beer drinker I had a good time. I had a cosmo at the game and watched all the other drunk fools slur their speach and have a good time.

I get back to the house with the crowd in tow and they stay the night. I head off to work around ehhh Midnight or so. Work all night while those fools sleep and then go home and wake them up. Lay my head down on my pillow for about ohhh an hour or so and getup and do it again.

You know I do not think people realize what I do.
When people ask me to do things they think that "Hey, he just works nights.. right" Yeah I "JUST" work nights while you sleep all night long and I work my ass off then I work during the day and you expect me to be on the same level as you.. or go "hang out" with you..
Come on give me a fucking break I mean I am always tired for a reason I want my sleep and I want my personal time.

People sometimes just look at what they are not getting instead of what they are getting. Everything is a give and take situation.. right? You always will have to give something to get something. So I mean I give up my SLEEPING time to go spend time with people and I get put myself BEHINd in my personal life. do people ever consider that? I mean do people ever consider what I am giving up to be awake for them?

That right there just gets my blood pressure boiling.

Anyways.. back to the topic as I got a little sidetracked. I left the house after getting a little sleep and went to the hospital to see BB before her operation. I got there just in time. I was not in there more than like 5 mins and they came in and gace her the meds to put her under. I said my goodbyes and left. Headed off to work. Then I go tlost on my way to work because I got off at the wrong exit on one of the many ones that you can choose from on the dreaded GA-400.

Worked half asleep there for a while until I literally ran out of steam and went home a little early so that I could get a little rest before today. Now, I have to route 6 out of 9 facilities and also go and get the last load out of my apartment so that I can turn in the keys. Pickup my cat and my fish tank and my light fixture and be done with the place.

Fwd: Delivery Status Notification (Failure)

Subject: Up and coming

This is something that I am going to share with everyone I know. This will make your day, you'll feel much closer to heavan and totally be thankful that you actually have some reserve. First, let me tell you about what I am sending you. This is a show on the local Cable access channel UCTV in Cleveland, Tennessee. This is a Saturday event and they are live shows, pretty regularly. Enclosed is a picture of the bluegrass/gospel/rap/hip hop two person band.
Also is two sound clips that they have availiable for download from there web site.
Take a second, (be prepared to laugh), and check out this up and coming superstar show.
Remember, this is some orginal songs.
Please have a great laugh with this.
Some of the songs will be hard to listen to.

http://www.webspawner.com/users/revphili/

http://www.sonicbids.com/epk/epk.asp?epk_id=50061

More pics soon still moving in]