Nice Saber..

 

The wall coming together 

Tools of the trade. 

The slow process of building a level wall. 

Fron yard completed. 

SABER 

slwoly moving along. 

Look at those level bricks 

Watering the mess 

This is me roping off the retaining wall that I starte to build.  

Trying to show how level it is. 

This is the front yar before the flower bed and the landscaping. 

Ok this is the begining of the modification to my house and yard. I brougt in 4 tons of sand to level out the sod and make things look a lot better than it did. You can tell the uneveness of the land by the grass poking though. I wil post an after picture later. 

Ahhhh the TJ MAX special 

I do not know what these are really.. They just go with the collection 

Nice 

These past pictures where the compliments of the current alcoholic glass collection that I bought for myself last Christmas... I am still building my collection. 

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Divrorced?
Might as well be!! I have not really got anyhting accomplished this weekend except sitting on my but.. I am embarassed.. Well I miht as well getup now and do something.. I had a long week this week. I went to SCS and came back in the same day. Did not get anysleep from Thursday to Friday... Except what little I got in my car on the way back to here.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

You know.. I just noticed that my status is "a Swinger"!!!!!
OMG.. I never even knew that. I wonder what people have thought when they read my profile or blog. I mean I never look at my own profile on here just my opening page.. Ohh well! I hope it scared a lot of people away!!
Well anyone who knows me will attest.. I am the farthest thing from a swinger. But heck.. I need to change that! I mean the proile that is..
I am traveling this weekend it is confirmed. Will not speak publically of it here but I will be leaving Thursday night. I think but will be back the next day or Saturday. I have not figured it out just yet. I am flying b the seat of my pants on this one.



This is from myspace archive.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

There was no hatred!! Current mood: determined
I was not spilling hatred or anything.. I can just rememeber things that pepole have said to me that made me want to do the things I have. I used to be really down on myself..
During the time that BB and I where going through it and I was having major health issues.. I mean I was really downing myself not thinking I was good enough for a lot of things.. Now, people I do not even know are like woah... "It is nice to see what you have done for yourself and what you have planned for." I mean I know that all these "things" cannot bring me happiness. I know that I am not "succesful" with all these things.. I can just afford to have these toys and still carry on with my life.
I am NOT being morbid.. But, the truth is I am not going to be around forever and I cannot take these things with me.. I just want to have fun with them while I can.. and I can afford it.. I was not trying to be cocky with my last post whatsoever... BUT and a BIG BUT I have tried so hard in life to do nothing but get ahead from paycheck to pay check.. and now that I am there I feel good like I accomplised something... So I am going to TOOT my horn for a minute cause I know with the cycle of lief it will not last forever... I can have everything going so right and still be depressed..
Anyways.. I gots to go to bed..

Myspace archive

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Ever doubt me? Current mood: accomplished
For anyone who told me I can't...
F you...
For anyone who doubted me..
F you to.
For anyone that has ever hurt me..
You just made me stronger..
For all the troubles I have endured..
I am being rewarded..

I worked around the house this weekend.. I blew money like it was going ou of style.. I cooked enough food to last me a week..
I have really made it to a point in my life where money really is the farthest thing from my mind.. It is nothing to even really think about. All I do now is decided where I want it to go instead, of how to get more of it..
I have gone through my house and started offering items that I am not using anymore to people who need it more than me.
You know the thing that gets me the most. I have done this all by myself. Granted I have had help here and there but for the most part I have accomplished this by my own. I am proud of what I have done but I wonder how much more succes one can achieve.
I have had the first of a major complication though in my life last week. Cost me a trip to the doctors over it... yuck.
Anyways.. I just though I would tell you people out there that ever heard me talking and thought I was full of shit to piss off..
I will make a life for myself.. With or without anyones help and with or without someone.


Monday, July 17, 2006

Lifes milestones Current mood: awake
So everything a guy wants and yet I still thirst for more.
house. Dog. Cat. Car.. a nice car at that. I love driving it everywhere in Hot Lanta. Great job. Good girl.. but yet there is still an emptiness in my life. Something I crave and want. Something that I wish I could have everyday. It will all come in due time. I do not want to have to give up my sportscar life just yet but it is for sure something that I want.
Family.
I have an empty house to fill. I best get shagalaggin.


Friday, June 23, 2006

New things in life...
I sat last night at work and thought to myself how much my life has changed since I took that step and moved to Atlanta. Now... I cannot even believe who I have become. I owe it all to someone who I took a chance on and I guess they took a chance on me. I owe it to someone who changed their life and lost friends that they held close to them. We both had sacrifices to get where we are today. Hell, I guess we all must sacrifice to ge something we want. I have filled my life lately with rewards. All my hard work is paying off and I can see things coming together for my life. I am happy about the things that I have done with my life and can only wait to see what is going to come about and where I choose to go from here. I know I have not posted anything A in my blog for a LONG time or B in here for a while. There is a perfectly good reason why I am holding my life back from anyone who wants to read it. But, now that is in my past I can freely ad openly go back about my life and documenting it for people to poke there noses through. I have tons of intersting information to tell and devulge and Millions of pictures to post in my blog.

Life has is for sure gotten a ton better and things are good.. But as always I want things to be better than they are.. Soo anyways.. onward I go to striving for perfection...
And a baby's daddy...
(Inside Joke) No children for me yet...

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Time does get you..
I found out today that my grandfather is having mini strokes. He has suffered a few so far and they are so minute that he almost does not know that he has had them. This coming from a man who has been to the doctor about 15 times his whole life. He has always been healthy as a horse. The future is very unclear due to the fact that if he goes then there will be no one there to take care of my grandmother. Which means nursing home. I will not let that happen no matter what. I will literally sell everything I own and start all over if I have to. I have been shaken up about this but I am keeping my mouth shut about it. Only the myspace community of my firends who read my blog will know.
I cannot see my grandmother in a home, nor my grandfather. I will not let that happen and I do not think the rest of the family will either. Well, it is not the first time that we get bad news. But, the family, and I tend to just roll with it and live everyday we can with them. I knew there was a time and place for them to leave my life, but I am not ready for this just yet.


Monday, June 26, 2006