I miss what I had still. I had this picture on my desktop at work cause it reminded me of BB's dog. and it reminded me of her. I have yet to email her and let her know I moved. I have some mail for her. Nothing that looks important. But I still have yet to email her. I miss her still. I am hoping that by getting out of the old place and into something new I will create my own memories and let her go eventually. I wish I knew how she was able to just walk out the door from me. I always ask myself that. I know I do not care what anyone says I know that she did care someplace in her heart. That there was something there. I know. There had to been. I keep telling myself that... I will never know. I will just keep that thought in my head. I need to email her.. I just do not feel like I dunno I just do not want to bother her. I feel that I bothered her and put enough screws in her life by doing what I did. I ruined her friendships with so many people. I can never forgive myself for that. I was just trying to help.... I will finish my thoughts about the move what has happened and everything hopefully this friday when the cable company comes out for the second time AGAIN lazy assholes.