What a tangle we live in..

Well the weekend has come and gone..
Nothing much but work has gone on this past weekend...
I went out Sat night to a local place called Dave and Busters with a friend..
We had a good time..
We played the night away with games..

Won alot of stuff still have alot of points on my card to go back and win alot more.. Err
Cash in my points for prizes..

Anyways..
Life has been really quite lately..
I still have not made it into sleep in my bed yet.
I have been staying on the couch now for a couple of weeks..
I have not been able to bring my self to go and get into the big bed by myself..
I know it would be really lonely and I would just make myself upset..

It is hard to go from sleeping with someone for a while to nothing..
I mean it is not like we had spent years together but the time we did spend together was great and I had always been able to sleep good with her there..
We talked this past weekend on the phone..
Not for a long time but long enough to make me miss what I thought we had. I will eventually heal..... I have been keeping myself pretty busy so that I do not have the leisure time of coming home to an emtpy house. So far it is working..
I will start working days for a little while here shortly and hopefully it will help the whole thing of being alone. I will be able to go out on a normal schedule and have fun. Go out Friday nights and the weekend and not be so tired.. That will be good. But, I am not sure I will like the job itself.. Who knows we will find out shortly.. When I am thrown into it. I Am so stressed right now in life.. I am trying hard not to show it to anyone but it has seemed like the whole world has come down around me and come undone in the past couple months. I know things will get better, it is just hard sometimes holding on to hope. Becasue that is the only thing I have to hold on to.
But, on the other hand I am young attractive and smart..
I have a good job and alot of things going for me. Today this older couple came into Chilis and We talked forever. I was not that busy and they asked me to sit down and talk about life with them. When I first approached the table they promprtly started arguing. When we where talking they said that when they where doing that it did not even phase me. I told them it was just a testament to their love for each other. Their ability to sit down argue and move on that w=quickly. She told me it was because he was such a good man and that she loved him and he agreed.

Ohh yeah this weekend I went to eat at a place called Champs sports Bar and Grille.. It reminded me of Jocks..
Everyone was wearing Black tight pants and black shirts.. I just kept thinking of her.. I just kept ordering drinks as well.. Hoping that I would forget about it.. But nonetheless the food was ok and I even played some golf...
I was glad when we left.. The place was HUGE! Then we went to D&B.. 21 after 9pm.. But when we got in there... KIDS all around.. Dunno why you had to be 21 to get in because there where plenty of children in and around the place..
Well anyways.. I am going to go to work.. Sometime today I have to jet back home to pickup my lunch and my nextel phone so that I can work today.. Woops I forgot it..
I know things will stop hurting soon..