Sleepless night...

I gothome from work not to long ago and I cannot sleep.. They fired a batender at work and asked me to step on and work. So I worked as a bartender for tonight and I am going to work as one Sun night on Fathers day.. It is sort of exciting. I wish I had her to come home to for some reason. I have not heard from her in a month now. Not even a phone call. No email.. I am just giving her what I think she wants. Ir still hurts but I have to deal with it. She must have moved on... I wish it where that easy for me. I fell hard for her. I miss what we had together and what we accomplished together. Maybe I am just rambling because my roomate has someone and I do not.. I do not know..